| Torchwood Signing, Cardiff |
Well, that was a fun day. Last week, I went to town with my twin, and we saw a sign saying that there would be a Torchwood signing of the 3rd series DVD with John Barrowman, Eve Myles and Gareth David-Lloyd (yum). So, we skipped home and merrily planned to go. That signing was today, and we went with two other friends, one of whom had a Captain Jack military coat!  My envious photo-editing skills. Yes, I made a fan club for my friend's Jack Harkness coat. It was the most awesome thing ever. We got there at 11, had originally planned to be there for 1 o'clock but all our school lessons were cancelled (well, my twin actually had to mitch Biology, but shh), so we went early - and it was a good thing we did! There were already about 30 people in the queue, and the signing didn't start until 5pm!
 The queue at about 4pm... probably about 300 people came in the end!
- 2 VERY ADHD kids kept having what they referred to as 'a pushy fight' in which they basically jumped on each other and pushed each other into shop doorways and phone boxes... that was the strangest thing I have ever seen people doing in public.
- A weird beggar woman came up to us. She was about 4ft tall and very old, with a coffee cup to beg with. I don't like being hassled - I am not averse to giving money to those who need it, but this woman literally just stood there until people gave her something, so I turned to her and said 'I'm sorry, but I have given all my worldly goods to the poor children of Belarus'. She actually smiled and said 'thank you'!
- A strange improvisational drama man began doing performances for us! He had this act where you gave him an object and he did a comedy act with it. He wasn't funny at all, but it passed about 15 minutes.
Then, at 5pm...
I HAVE THEIR AUTOGRAPHS.
I didn't speak to them - you weren't really allowed, there were too many people there - but GDL is lovely in real life, JB is better-looking than he is on screen (I think his botox was wearing off, thank goodness) and also very lovely, and EM is mad and equally lovely and has great hair. So, all-in-all, an amazing day - but my feet don't half hurt...Labels: friends, me, picture |
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| It will get better. |
Sometimes it does seem like it won't, because that's the thing with anxiety; it's a 'nothing disease'. The symptoms of it mean that you ignore it because you don't want to feel worthless, which is essentially how anxiety makes you feel anyway. It's a paradox, but not an inescapable one. Anxiety isn't ever really spontaneous. You don't wake up one day and realise you're suffering from it. It builds up over a long time, like tar on the lungs, and it's usually caused by repeated erosion of your confidence. But confidence is a strange thing. You can have bucketloads one day, and none the next, for no discernable reason.
Anxiety isn't really a feeling. We all feel anxious, but we don't all have anxiety. Anxiety sufferers have low self-esteem. It's also known as 'social phobia'. Some sufferers can't go into shops, some can't even go out in public. I have an irrational fear of post offices and phone calls. Yes, it's laughable, but it's irrational. People laugh at anxiety sufferers because they're seen as wimps who cry and chicken out of everything. That's not what it is. People have asked me why I act like it's a big deal when I manage to walk past a dog in the street. To me, that's a huge milestone. That's not anxiety related, but my cynophobia produces a similar feeling to my anxiety (panic attacks, irrational crying), and when I manage to beat it, it's like beating a part of me that's not really there. Just as cancer sufferers have to fight a part of their body that's not really them, mentally ill people have to fight a part of themselves that's hiding within their consciousness. It's hard, and people do underestimate that.
BUT
it's not impossible. Yes, 80% of people relapse with a mental illness, but 20% don't, and of the 80% that do, most of them are cured again.
For the sufferers:
Give therapy a chance.
You are worth it.
You are human and there's nothing to be afraid of in admitting that you don't want to be beaten.
For the others:
Don't laugh at someone else's misfortune; a large proportion of people will suffer from mental health issues at one point in their life.
Don't laugh at someone's phobia. One of my friends finds it hilarious that I'm terrified of dogs and post offices. I find it hilarious that she thinks she's better at writing than me. We all have our weaknesses, but we all have our strengths.
Take the time to understand. We are all equal, but we are all different. Don't think that that's a bad thing.Labels: anxiety, friends, me |
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| Thanks. |
Oh, I am pissed off.
I have never been this pissed off in my life.
Thanks for making me and my sister cancel our birthday party because 'you had no money' even though you have over £300 in the bank.
Thanks for making my sister and I pay £15 for your birthday meal and then buy you a present.
Thanks for then proceeding to invite everyone out to the cinema at a cost of £10 on the day after what would have been our birthday party.
Thanks for not buying us a present or even a measly card.
Thanks for fucking up our birthday and not giving a shit.Labels: friends, list, rant |
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Name: AnwenKya
Home: Cardiff
About Me: I am a 5ft blonde teenager with an overactive imagination, bad temper and terrifying sense of humour. Hear me roar!
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